2025

 

New motto, be present.

Took all the time I needed to rest this weekend.

From the hectic and stressful work past week, and to recover from my midnight drive.

Also took a break while diving deep into my new book.

Talking about this, my main goal in 2nd half 2024 and this 2025 is always to fix myself, mentally, spiritually.

What happened in 2024 is a reflection of chaotic inner self and I've promised myself to be more peaceful this year round, and have more strength spiritually.

想成为平静且有力量的人

Simple goal but I know it is way to go.

I've recently finished 2 spiritual-related books that go around universal law, and how your inner world change your outer world.

I'm happy and in awe to see the changes in myself aka how it is already instilled in my belief system.

2nd book just took me 16 days for approximately 260 pages hahaha.

Cause mostly everything can be well digested and absorbed so I dont have to spend much time in it.

Funny how.... when I take time to digest something, I tend to read it aloud hahaha for a few times until I get the grasp of the idea/theory behind... 

This is also how I hahahaha attempted to improve my English speaking tone and slang.

Honestly, I was in bad shape long time ago, while I'm sometimes, intermittently okay... I'm easily defeated and tend to go back to the same pothole.

I know I still have to work on this from time to time, but it's miraculous how I've come so far.

From someone who hurt herself, or thinking about committing suicide,

To someone who could wake up in peace, and love her life.

I'm grateful for everything I've now, and I fully understand a work in progress, is a progress.

That's the reason why I always say.... things happened for a reason.

I won't be me, if I don't experience what I experienced.

So, somehow, hahaha, I never run out of stories about my life.

I can talk all night long about my stories, my experiences, be it the good one or the bad one.

But I'm in hesitant now as I started my new book - got this book to fix my temper hahaha.

(To answer my friend's question of why always spiritual-related book instead of the functional one like - closing sales, communication 101 etc, it's because I believe, a strong core build a strong man)

I'm at the 1/3 of the book now and it's mostly about letting go.

For instance, letting go of the negative emotions, letting go of the judgement, letting go of wanting to be right, letting go of your bad stories (as per your own label), and surprisingly...

Also letting go of the good stories.

So hehehe gonna keep my mouth shut for a bit while I finish the book.

Probably need a lot more time to digest and a 2nd read might be needed to absorb.

Anyway! It's a random post.

Been wanting to write a new one for some time, but I'm always "busy" hahahaha < nahhh I just find different reason to procrastinate.

My last post is about my break up thoughts, so I thought maybe it's the right time to talk about life, after more than 6 months.

Life has changed tremendously, and hahaha am I allowed to say this way that --- I think life is now greater without a chaotic partner. Oopsie.

While I'm still bearing the consequences but life.... has been really amazing.

And my universe has been very kind to me.

I've re-discovered myself, I've re-living my life.

While I reconnected with some of my old friends, I've also made new amazing friends from different places. 

I made an impulsive move of changing my career to be more aggressive in life and luckily, so far it has treated me well... probably also because my colleagues are cute *grateful max*

One good sign about this change is that, I don't feel dreaded going to work hehe - somewhat excited sometimes hahahah

Healthy parents, hardworking sibling, cute and healthy cats, supportive friends, happy life.

Really thankful for everything I have, I'm so contended (hehehe but I don't mind receiving more good deeds from my universe hahaha - in case this sentence is a limiting one hahahahaha!)

Ok! Checking out.

I should be planning my trip itinerary instead or, be packing my luggage instead but hahaha, well, procrastinator made sure they put all the effort at the wrong places.

Cya!